For what feels like the first time of my ife, I have been at peace. I am not at peace all the time, but still I am much of each day and I am happy. Yet, there are some ripples in my pond, as the good Dr. Mckay said (well, he used the same analogy in a different way). I feel a nagging sense of being overworked, yet I have much less work than most of my friends. I am very tired a lot of the time, and many times I find myself waking in the middle of the night with a bizzare feeling that is not worry, but certainly not contentment. I find myself feeling joyous and enlightened during my school hours but when I get home I am tired and have burning desire to play piano for 30 min to an hour and then lock myself up in my tv room and play warhawk on my Ps3. Many days I end up doing just that. Intermittantly singing loudly. I have begun to long for the next morning when I can get to school....and through all this I see so much humanity and love in everything that I almost weep with joy sometimes. I have taken a sudden and drastic attraction to the song Imagine by John Lennon (although I listen to Josh Groban's recording of it.) I taped the lyrics to my wall.....Right now as I write this I am listening to a repeating playlist of that song and American Pie by Don Mclean.... something deep about that one too, though I don't know what....I am tired. I think I shall retire for the evening. Good night, and good luck.